Thursday, March 3, 2011

Hormones with a side of Clingon

I am currently 11 weeks pregnant.

In 7 days, I begin my second trimester.

All I can think about that is "holy cow! where did it go?!" LOL

In four days we leave for Austin to pick out our new temporary home. I am a little excited, probably because I am looking forward to the break from my kids more than anything as I have NEVER been away from them longer than a single overnight and two full days. At the same time, I am 100% NOT ready for this trip. I am going to Wal-Mart tomorrow to stock up on some trial size soaps and such to pack in our luggage, but that is about ALL that I can do to prepare right now.

Anyway, the point of this blog was really for me to vent, because I am irritated right now.

Can I just say, it irritates the everlovingfuck out of me when I have to ASK for attention?!?!

I mean, SERIOUSLY?! I have to ASK for some snuggle and cuddle time. WTF is wrong with this picture??

I have never really been a super bitchy "leave me alone", "don't touch me", "get out of my face" pregnant woman. I have always bottled it up and blogged it out.

I'm also not in the "wahwah" stage of my pregnancy right now, where I cry at the drop of a hat, unless we are in the truck and something on the radio makes me jerk a tear, and then I try and hide it.

I don't ask for anyone to hold my hair when I puke. Nobody runs my bathwater. Nobody massages my swoolen feet and ankles.

There HAS been a midnight run for Claussens Kosher Dill Pickles. And Carb Smart Ice Cream. And a 10pm run for a smoothie, but, in my defense, he was going out anyway.....

I'm just saying, I'm not a real high maintenance pregnant chick at this point, and I really don't think that it's too much to ask for it to be OBVIOUS that I need some extra snuggle and cuddle time. I want everyone ELSE to leave me alone, but I want him to let me be a little clingy.

Yes, I am hormonal, but it's not blatantly obvious or outrageous yet. I got six more months, I'll catch up some!

GAH! I just feel like SOMEONE needs a reminder once in a while that MAYBE their partner needs some PHYSICAL contact with them once in a while that is totally not sexually related.

Honestly, I feel like an asshole when I have to actually say "hey, when the kids all go to bed, do you think maybe you could forget about the damn video games for an evening and just come in here and snuggle with me for a little while, maybe let me fall asleep in your arms or something?"

I mean, I shouldn't have to spell it out. I'm sorry I'm so damn CLINGY right now. That's just how I get.

I'm pretty sure most guys would take horny and clingy out of their pregnant partner over bitchy and sobbing any day though.